Y'all are dark magicians

Sometimes I'll feel like "yeah, I know some math, I can do integrals!", then watch some YouTube video from Micheal Penn about why there's no three dimensional complex numbers, and suddenly it's dark magic. I understand absolutely n o t h i n g. it's impressive, inspiring, depressing, overwhelming, all at the same time. There's no fancy words. It's all mundane words like set, algebra, etc. but they're strung together in arcane ways. it's more overwhelming because you understand the individual words but they're a whole other language when together.