This is legit what im afraid of. I realized ive just been dissociating my entire life and hence didnt have any reaction at all to the concept of death while my friends were having an existential crisis. I also realized if i do start to become a person when starting HRT I will most likely have to go through to that whole circus again. Unsure how much my previous conclusions will help in managing that. BUT THIS WONT STOP ME ❤️😤
It absolutely made things harder for me. I actively didn't care that I knew the world was going to shit, but now I'm terrified of it because I'm now an active participant. That said, I wouldn't dream of go back for anything.
Yeah, same. Being indifferent to your own death is a bit of a shield. Now there's no possibility of emotional distance between myself and everything that's happening.
I know what's happening is that my experience of being trans is actually very common and many of us here are going through it, but I swear to fuck Jessica you are inside my skull.
A few times recently you have posted memes the day after I've verbally expressed the exact feeling to friend irl. It's like that feeling you get when you see an ad for the thing you were just talking about.
New conspiracy theory, TNJ is a rogue Google employee who was sick of using her spying powers for evil advertising and instead decided to use the technology available to her to crack eggs.
I’m the reverse feeling. My plan was basically to end myself by ~50/60, now I genuinely want to live. Death might happen, but it’ll be random and not something I have to worry about.
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strawberry_enjoyer42@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 39 pts · 88d
Most real thing I've seen all day.
Nulliza@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 31 pts · 88d
This is legit what im afraid of. I realized ive just been dissociating my entire life and hence didnt have any reaction at all to the concept of death while my friends were having an existential crisis. I also realized if i do start to become a person when starting HRT I will most likely have to go through to that whole circus again. Unsure how much my previous conclusions will help in managing that. BUT THIS WONT STOP ME ❤️😤
TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 24 pts · 88d
It absolutely made things harder for me. I actively didn't care that I knew the world was going to shit, but now I'm terrified of it because I'm now an active participant. That said, I wouldn't dream of go back for anything.
Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 7 pts · 87d
Yeah, same. Being indifferent to your own death is a bit of a shield. Now there's no possibility of emotional distance between myself and everything that's happening.
Cass@piefed.blahaj.zone · 6 pts · 87d
Of all the moments in my life I could've picked to finally become a person...
TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 7 pts · 87d
better to be a person than to live as a husk
Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 21 pts · 87d
I know what's happening is that my experience of being trans is actually very common and many of us here are going through it, but I swear to fuck Jessica you are inside my skull.
TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 13 pts · 87d
Sorry, but I like it in here and I'm not leaving anytime soon :3
Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 11 pts · 87d
A few times recently you have posted memes the day after I've verbally expressed the exact feeling to friend irl. It's like that feeling you get when you see an ad for the thing you were just talking about.
New conspiracy theory, TNJ is a rogue Google employee who was sick of using her spying powers for evil advertising and instead decided to use the technology available to her to crack eggs.
TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 9 pts · 87d
Gosh, I wish my lore was that interesting. Unfortunately, I only know these things because I'm an all knowing, immaterial being
Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 9 pts · 87d
Makes sense tbh.
chloektboehnchen@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 16 pts · 88d
To me that just means I should live as much as I can, while I can
Luffy879@lemmy.ml · 14 pts · 88d
I mean, thats a good sign if you actually mind dying
forbiddencherry@lemmy.today · 11 pts · 88d
Congrats!
Also ❤️ Fumino. Used to have such a crush on her.
TotallyWorthLife@lemmy.world · 10 pts · 88d
Mood
VerilyFemme@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 8 pts · 88d
OH! I thought that was a quarter-life crisis, but this makes so much sense.
Quokka@quokk.au · 8 pts · 88d
I’m the reverse feeling. My plan was basically to end myself by ~50/60, now I genuinely want to live. Death might happen, but it’ll be random and not something I have to worry about.
brookedSmile@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 8 pts · 87d
Look at the bright side tho! Now you want to live life, and thats a helluva drug.
Honestly probly the best drug out there on the market currently
magic_smoke@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 6 pts · 87d
I uh, yeah.
Captain_Patchy@lemmy.world · 5 pts · 87d
It's always something.
Do the best you can it's all anyone can do.