I'll deny any and every positive emotion in order to not feel like a burden

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RagingHungryPanda@lemm.ee · 4 pts · 2y (3 replies)
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Banana_man@reddthat.com · 5 pts · 2y (2 replies)

I feel like I lose myself if I feel good and do things I regret. I don't like the person I am when I'm feeling good so I choose not to feel good at all.

RagingHungryPanda@lemm.ee · 4 pts · 2y (1 reply)
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Banana_man@reddthat.com · 2 pts · 2y

That's sweet of you, thank you. It's kind of like I get drunk on the emotion and become more like the person I was before working on myself. More selfish, more insensitive, etc. I want to feel good about things but I don't want to lose myself doing it. It feels degrading, both in the moment and also after. I become able to see myself do stupid things but can't interfere no matter how I feel inside.

ghostx@yiffit.net · 1 pts · 2y

Always positive emotions 🤙🏻