clove

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Doctors and therapists have pushed me to try it my entire life, as I have ADHD-i, ASD, and major depression/anxiety (late 40s). After literal decades of wrestling with the entire topic from one direction or another, I've come to the conclusion I do less psychic damage to myself by not even trying at this point. Basically, It would have a relatively large likelihood of increasing anxiety and/or depression each time I practiced, to the point it was almost a guaranteed trigger to spiraling by the time I gave it up. (Which would've been sometime in about 2020 or so?)

None of this is to say you shouldn't keep trying! Just attempt to be aware when it's having more of a detrimental effect on your mood than beneficial, and be prepared to shift your focus as needed.

on Advice on tucking? · c/mtf · 7 pts · 1y

I'm so sorry. It's tricky for everyone, I suspect. Maybe more so for some.

I wish I had some expert tips, but I never had any luck myself, and eventually gave up. It just always hurt too much when everything was secure enough not to "pop out" on me. Which made leaving the house that way untenable as all heck: who wants to walk or drive with their groin aching from the deathgrip of pain holding them by their tender bits? :c

I hope you have more luck with the gaff. It's something I never got around to exploring, as I figured for me it would be more of the same constant dull ache. I'm old enough not to worry too much what people think if they notice, which I know isn't a solution for everyone.

on *Permanently Deleted* · c/adhd · 1 pts · 1y

Not sure!

I have insane PVCs that have so far made other classes less attractive. Even when I'm well-medicated with my atenolol I still get the "anxiety" feeling as my heart valve leaks. Unmedicated I feel like I can't breathe at all, which is awful. And my BP then goes into the 200/100 range (I am not exaggerating, I wish I was).

My liver basically can't metabolize CYP2B6 or CYP2D6 mediated drugs, so anything believed to be carried into the body by those will screw me up so badly I often won't even try. (I've nearly ended up in the ER several times now trying 75% of the anti-depressants out there, which I needed badly once I realized my ADHD an fribromyalgia would never be medicated. As an example. ;)

on *Permanently Deleted* · c/adhd · 2 pts · 1y

I would agree with you if any of the others I've tried had the desired effect. I'm already not medicated for several things because my body simply cannot metabolize whole classes of drugs. Having my kidneys shut down would suck a lot more, though.

My resting heartrate is fine, 60-70 BPM. BP is well controlled. No orthostatic hypotension.

Two cardiologists have told me it's fine if this is what works for me. I hear you, but I'm not taking something newer just to make my GP more comfortable and me less so. They're my doctor, not vice versa.

on *Permanently Deleted* · c/adhd · 13 pts · 1y

I had a doctor try to force me off my atenolol and metoprolol to amlodipine. Ostensibly because she "didn't like" that I was taking such a high dose of two separate beta-blocker meds. Not sure if she thought I was going to take them all in a fit of despair, or what, but it went really badly. My anxiety and ADHD were a lot worse, rather than better, and my BP skyrocketed.

I can't take stimulants. My body can't metabolize them well (or at all?), so I end up knocked unconscious for half the day. Basically, 6-8 hours where I can stay awake only by fighting tooth and nail. Even on fractional doses! Wild stuff. While their results are interesting (especially for those like me who failed every single non-stimulant, hard) this could be helpful. Oooor it could just be more big pharma BS with no up-side. So hard to tell anymore.

on *Permanently Deleted* · c/funny · 2 pts · 1y

Nice, I don't know why, but I was picturing the pink car going fast enough to squeal their tires like they used to in the one nearest where I live. We only got roundabouts here a decade or two ago, so they're still a novelty to most. I don't drive much, as you can probably tell.

Glad to hear Brave isn't awful. I haven't tried it as I'm trying to avoid Chrome entirely for now.

I've been using IceRaven/Mull on a very old (out of support) LG phone, and I'm not sure I entirely understand the "pauses" thing? I don't see meaningful pauses when I switch tabs, other than the page reloading if it was purged from RAM. But like. That happens in Safari on iOS on a brand new phone, too, so it's not entirely an Android-specific complaint.

Honestly, all mobile browsers are UI train-wrecks of one kind or another. For me it was this exact process of elimination to decide which I like least, and then from there deciding which inflict the fewest paper cuts. For me, FF sync (settings mostly, but also tab sets) was more important than whatever memory problems Mozilla rebrands might have. :(

on *Permanently Deleted* · c/funny · 0 pts · 1y

I don't follow the rules only because I don't drive at all. Otherwise, yes, you are correct, I don't follow rules which endanger my life. Just weird that way.

Haha. I had access to subtitles when I watched Dark Knight, so it wasn't as awful an experience.. For Inception, Tenet, and Interstellar I just had no idea what was even happening, at all. (Bounced off Inception in the first few minutes because I just didn't GAF.) My experiences have been so frustrating I vowed not to watch his stuff until he improved his craft.

Like, I get that he's not interested in anyone else's opinion about his art. That's cool, he should be doing his own thing! But he's making a lot of inaccessible shovelware crap that's gonna be on sale in discount bins in only years, and really truly doesn't care. Bleh!

I tried, I really did. It just made me uncomfortably bored. (Which from someone who's rewatched every MST3K I could get my hands on a dozen or so times each, is saying something. :)

I love bad movies as well. This one was too far over the line for me, I just wasn't interested in its specific brand of "meh". (Admittedly I have never read the book, and have never heard anything good about this author before, despite reading a ton of sc-fi. Maybe you need to know the author to enjoy it?)

on *Permanently Deleted* · c/funny · 7 pts · 1y

I love how the meme assumes everyone trusts everyone else's driving. Utopian ideals, man.