Hey ! Haven't posted in some time here... last time it was about my fear of regretting transitioning and being sure of who I am. I'm pretty sure now, I have been on hormones for like 6-7months (since september), I love the changes to my body, my mood, my mind... But, I went out "as fem" to see if I could stomach being "full time" as they said.
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And the looks. They're just so violent. Once the streets I pass are a bit crowded, and people feel authorized to be assholes, and I am not with my friends, the looks are... just wearing me down. I know I don't pass 100% but they make me feel like a monster. They are looks meant to pierce me from end to end and overspill the uneasiness they have unto me.
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So here I am, having worked on my wardrobe, doing hours of voice training, having learned for hours how to do my make up... only for it to feel so so small, to be worth nothing. And I was wondering, honestly, does it get better... ? I feel kinda low at the moment :/
It's true that seeing the alternative, just forgetting about it all and shove it in a corner of my mind, I would always wonder what had been. Honestly, this is a scary possibility to me, the road just seems so long. When I look into the mirror, no matter how I dress, no matter how I shave, I always see a man trying to be girl... I sincerely hope that HRT will help in all of this, but I'm so scared of the consequences.
Thank you for your reply, I will try journaling it and see what comes out. You're right, it's always useful !
Started HRT but i feel so, so scared of what i'm doing. Am i doing this for the right reasons ? Will I be capable of being a woman ? Of transitioning ? Will I regret it ? I get so much doubts lately, it's making me panic repeatedly... Life is hard right now
Oh yeah basically all senses became more intense.
What
Thank you <3
Hey ! Haven't posted in some time here... last time it was about my fear of regretting transitioning and being sure of who I am. I'm pretty sure now, I have been on hormones for like 6-7months (since september), I love the changes to my body, my mood, my mind... But, I went out "as fem" to see if I could stomach being "full time" as they said.
::: spoiler
And the looks. They're just so violent. Once the streets I pass are a bit crowded, and people feel authorized to be assholes, and I am not with my friends, the looks are... just wearing me down. I know I don't pass 100% but they make me feel like a monster. They are looks meant to pierce me from end to end and overspill the uneasiness they have unto me. :::
So here I am, having worked on my wardrobe, doing hours of voice training, having learned for hours how to do my make up... only for it to feel so so small, to be worth nothing. And I was wondering, honestly, does it get better... ? I feel kinda low at the moment :/
A Star Slop adventure
I think zombies go under kernel or "root process" by default now
I need to rewatch derry girls so hard
All old dudes lmao
What kind of lgbt symbol is that ? Never seen it :c
Wait what's a hunk
I don't get the hate, i think it's a pretty good song ! Better than somebody i used to know
Yeah and his government lasted 13h
It's true that seeing the alternative, just forgetting about it all and shove it in a corner of my mind, I would always wonder what had been. Honestly, this is a scary possibility to me, the road just seems so long. When I look into the mirror, no matter how I dress, no matter how I shave, I always see a man trying to be girl... I sincerely hope that HRT will help in all of this, but I'm so scared of the consequences.
Thank you for your reply, I will try journaling it and see what comes out. You're right, it's always useful !
Thanks ! That's reassuring. I thought that after feelings the hormonal effects I would be more set in my decision
Started HRT but i feel so, so scared of what i'm doing. Am i doing this for the right reasons ? Will I be capable of being a woman ? Of transitioning ? Will I regret it ? I get so much doubts lately, it's making me panic repeatedly... Life is hard right now
No that would be the new prime minister
Y E S
Yeah i dunno abt that one
Or both !