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on Is blahaj.zone dead? · c/fediverse · -2 pts · 1y

as blahaj.zone and lemmy.blahaj.zone run on different servers, and both were unreachable at the time of my op, i really meant dead, not down

from the article:

From the Popol Vuh, or National Quiché History

[Excerpt from Part II]

“Brother, the bats have stopped moving. It looks like the sun has begun to rise,” said Ixbalanqué to Hunahpú.

“Perhaps. I am not sure,” answered Hunahpú, “Let me look…”

And when Hunapú stuck out his head, to see if dawn was breaking, Camazotz cut it off at the neck with a single blow.

“Hunahpú, is it morning yet?” Ixbalanqué asked. And when his brother did not reply, he yelled out, “Hunahpú! Where are you?”

Then Ixbalanqué understood the silence. […]

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I, Who Am Ignorant

I, who am ignorant Need to know If white is virtue true So I can go and bleach my skin

Asks this question, a loyal man Because he needs to know If the black man should not be baptized In the baptismal font

If there is yet another more pure

Going forward, going back Prettier, shinier Where the white man is dipped Will someone tell it straight For I, who am ignorant

Two men and one woman From whom we all descend While only the black man With disdain ought to be faced

The same blood it must be Though the black man alone Is placed forever Separate

If the black man is not baptized I need to know Black was St. Benedictine Black his paintings too And in the Holy Scripture I have never seen a single word writ in white ink

Black were the nails driven through the Christ’s hands Died, he, upon the holy cross Is it possible then, that down he came Not to suffer for the white man’s sins Only this way will I know If the color white is virtue true

When we have to account To my God for every deed How will the black man atone For the white man’s sins

If the black man is then found Without a crime for which to pay Will they say that it’s not true That the white man has no sentence That it’s all been misconstrued So that then I may go and bleach my skin

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Every time…

Every time I lift my foot, every time I lift my hand, I shake my tail. I listen to your voice come from very far. I am almost asleep: I look for a fallen tree to crawl inside, and sleep. My skin, my foot, my hand, my ears are scratched.

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Return to the Countryside

Women pounded the grain for a vegetable stew

night was imminent they had to hurry because lanterns were forbidden

when the gong called for dinner the soldiers did not share the meal with the peasants

the next morning half of them had denounced their parents the other half wore posters on their bodies condemned to certain death

the order was to climb the mountain to live up in the heights among the lowliest but the sky answered with floods

so they returned to the cities looking for carrion

that was my army ravenous crows


Rationing

In the line a woman shouts there’s flour

I think of warm biscuits

Soon I hear only rice is left but my happiness is futile

They’re bringing sugar Oh! miracle I will wait I hear words ricochet the sugar is gone

The line begins to disperse

I persist eventually they will bring something finally a hand offers me a chicken I leave with my treasure

In a bookstore nearby a friend has the nerve to read me a long poem the poet doesn’t know why I flee such an ordinary goodbye fills me with guilt

You must live in a country with hunger to understand how a poem’s symmetry can be broken by the slow drip of guts and blood

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Like Coal

And then you were born, girl with eyes so black. Black as the coal your father burns, like your mother’s skillet, like the burnt underside of her comal.

Like the eye of the well shot through by darkness.

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Retelling of the Flood Caused by the Mapocho River in the City of Santiago de Chile

“On June 16, 1783 the effects of torrential rains caused the river Mapocho in Santiago, Chile to flood its banks. At the time the small community of Carmelite nuns resided in their cloistered convent next to the river. The rains started in May, but became a deluge in early June and by the time of the great flood, it had poured for 209 hours straight. The nuns would have drowned, had it not been for some neighbors who broke a hole in one of the walls, leading twenty-eight women to safety. Sor Tadea de San Joaquín, a nun from the Carmelite Convent of San Rafael, retells their story in a 516-versed romance [ballad], wherein Sor Tadea affirms that it was God’s will that the nuns be saved by the three men (she does not leave out the ironic detail that they had to be sobornados (bribed).”

– Sarah E. Owens, Travels, Natural Disasters, and the Texts of Cloistered Nuns: A Case from Colonial Chile

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Indigenous Identity

Identity, it is not in my hair It is not in my face Reflecting in the mirror. Identity is not something to see, It has no form, it has no color But delicate like a flower it is Identity lies within the speaking force In the profundity of a look In the singularity of my place Identity is open hands and share Feel the earth’s echoes and Love and peace at heart. Identity is open arms and receive The brotherly affirmation. Identity is Union!

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The Man

When encircled by a thirst of soul man, a desert traveler, wishes to gather armfuls of laurels, having reached the gates of glory; “Stop right here,” however, he says to the woman… Returning, then, to his march, if he feels himself waver, and lose his valor, “Come, come,” he tells her, “You are my partner in the hours of combat and agony…”

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Foolish Men

Foolish men, eagerly accusing women without cause, seeing not that from you springs the very same, those very flaws;

If readily you do invite them to happily disdain you, how do you want them well behaved if toward evil you’ll incite them?

[…]

What temper could be stranger? Than that of he who, lacking counsel, fogs the mirror with his breath and then whines at blurred reflection?

[…]

How can she, who for your love longs, keep her wits and keep her center if she who doesn’t is a prude and offends and she who does is a slut and angers?

Though between the anger and the insult by all your liking forged, if there still be one who doesn’t want you, then joyous hour for complaint.

Your lovers hang sorrows on liberty’s wings for, after making them bad, you wish to find them good.

Whom, then, has sinned more in mistaken passion: she who falls to his begging? Or he who, fallen, begs her?

Or who has greater blame, though in any blame you’ll find, she who sins for pay or he who pays to sin?

How are you then startled to find guilt there in your heart? Love them as you make them. Or make them as you wish.

[…]

Now, with all my weapons your arrogance I battle, for in promise and petition you join devil, flesh, and world.

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To Live and Die

Smoke and nothingness, the breath of being: Flower, man, and bird die too as love runs to forgetful seas and pleasure flees to a burial of brevity.

Where are yesterday’s lights? All splendors have their dusk, behind liquor hides all bitterness, and everything is rectified by the evil of being born.

Who laughed without first, in pain, moaning pleasure, sweet suffering? Crazy and vain, the passion of feeling!

Vain and crazy, I long for thought! What is it to live? To dream without sleeping. What is it to die? To sleep without dreaming.

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Neurosis

You do know that the spirit is an abyss and the heart an ocean: That this is how I can carry within me one infinity, and also the other.

My nerve endings, a living harp, hang from the branches of my frame of forest flesh, letting out a whimper as—across the strings— tiptoes the storm.

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Excerpt from Relaciones, or Anales

Here is the water and the hill, here the altar of jade, Amaquemecan—Chalco in the place of renown in the place that is example, near the fields of reeds, at the edge of the forest, in the nearness of snow, where they say Poyauhtlan,

[…]

in the garden of flowers, in the garden of mists, where lives the white quail, where curls the snake, near the dwelling of tigers, in Tamoanchan, in the place of our beginning, where flowers rise… Here they came to settle the lords Chichimecas, the priests, the princes…

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Defeated

We can give up.

It matters not to surrender in silence, if the drums of vengeance echo from afar.


Sign of the Times

Nouns, pronouns, articles… prefixes of the quotidian, suffixes of the allowed. Verbs to regulate conduct and adjectives to qualify injustice.

Nouns, pronouns, articles… exact forms, easy to invert.

The letter, occasionally freed, rebels. And adds, but, also divides.

The word is cursed. It is the sign of the times.

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For Haiti

Oh, my poor island, victim of hopeless hopes, On the other side of the ocean, tempest and wind, I think of your misfortune and hold for you, within my soul, A dream for happier things. All the while they slander you,

Your daughter in the shade of an absent sun From the great sea where a red sky bursts in laughter, Guiding you to the other side of tempest and wind, This memory as deep as the shadow of your verse.

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We Came to Dream

Thus spoke Tochihuitzin, Thus spoke Coyolchiuhqui: ****Perhaps we left the dream ****we only came to dream, ****it is not true, it is not true, ****that we came to live upon the earth. ****Like a weed is spring ****in our being. ****Our heart bears, makes sprout ****flowers from our flesh. ****Some part their petals, ****then wither. Thus spoke Tochihuitzin.

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In Waters of Darkness

Breaking ship and shore it plunges deep. Giving of itself what the self is unable to give. Shipwrecked heart: you unleash storm clouds and you drag drown bleakly the High Heavens.


Cihuateteo¹

Her body’s indigo flakes away but red remains the cinnabar of her headdress, mineral wax on her eyelids, a serpent coiled around her waist, a resin brazier, her half-open lips …desire still remains.


¹Nahuatl word meaning “Divine Women.” In Aztec mythology, the souls of women who died in childbirth became these spirits who accompanied the setting sun.

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Footprints

Like the wind stirring up what has been lost… I return to look for them to no avail: dismembered, they left with the echo of the world Misplaced, abandoned, bewitched to the beat of “New York, New York” Scattered leaves, pigeon droppings they let their owner loose to raindrops Meanwhile, the ocean drinks up my groove, my recollections, splashing the shifting of memory: “Blowing in the wind” Bob Dylan is singing.

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The Creation of the Uinal [Excerpt]

This is the song of how the Uinal was created before the world was created, before dawn. […] Before the first awakening of the first world, the Uinal was born. Then, he began to walk, all on his own, in the company of his maternal grandmother, of his maternal aunt, of his sister-in-law. And the women said, “What shall we say, when we come upon tracks on the road?” In this way, they spoke, before man existed. While they walked along together. Then they arrived there, at the East, and found tracks upon the road. “Who has tread here?” they asked themselves. “We shall measure these tracks with our own feet,” they added. And they measured God’s footsteps, which is why they called the count of the world’s cycle Lahca 12 Oc (the day: young sun, son and nephew of moon). The measurement was taken when they’d gathered their feet precisely so, and then they left, from the East.