when did you realize you were gay??

I had a strong feeling of being bisexual in high school. Was totally open about it but nobody listened because I was a virgin.

Who said I'm gay?

had a sleepover with my best friend when we were 13. I always thought he was good looking. once I saw him change, I thought he looked kinda cute. right before we went to bed, we were roughhousing and he got on top of me. that's when it really clicked to me

Start of college, I kinda just realised that I like men too. Then that grew to I guess I like everything so now I'm pan.

For me it was about 6-8 years old. Ofc I had no clue what being gay or sex was, but I was very much attracted by boys at that age, and specially, when I saw very muscular men, it made something tingle inside me.

::: spoiler EVEN GAYER SHIT By 13 I was already drawing big muscular men, and making huge play-doh penises to my He-man action figures.

DISCLAIMER (in case someone is wondering) No, I have never been sexually abused or anything of the sort. :::

I liked watching wrestling just to see all the muscular guys... Also, in school, I crushed on a few guys.

Though when imagining a family, I always pictured myself with a girl. Seeing myself with a guy was just.. weird and a little bit uncomfortable. I think that was internalized homophobia. When I imagine a "family" now, I definitely see myself with a boyfriend and not a girlfriend. In fact, I find the opposite now, picturing myself with a girl gives me the "yikes, disgusting".