My person like that died last year and I'm still not okay.
Edit:
I appreciate the outpouring of support here.
Story time:
I grew up in an abusive household. My mother had BPD, and my sibling was the golden child. I was the scapegoat.
When things got too hot, I could just show up on my person's couch, middle of the night, and the only question ever asked was what I wanted for breakfast.
I've since moved across the country, but I ache for that sense of security again. Somewhere where I was always welcomed and never made to feel less than. Now that they've died, I fear I'll never find it again.
It's so hard to deal with, but I need help since it's been 14 months and I still cry near daily.
I've got an appointment later this week to get some professional help, because I don't think they'd appreciate the mess I've become since their passing.
I've got an appointment later this week to talk to professional types because I'm not handling it well and I don't think they'd like to see me in the state I currently am.
Wow, their entire profile got nuked but not deleted. What are they saying? And for a mod to have deleted all their comments, it seems the mod must be on their instance, in which case why didnt they delete the account?
Just a bunch of LLM based responses to each semi-random post. Same format each time, 2-3 paragraphs. New account with 57 posts in 11 hours, testing the waters on how well they set it to respond is my guess. Good for building a farm with a history.
17 Comments
JeanValjean@piefed.social · 42 pts · 304d
My person like that died last year and I'm still not okay.
Edit:
I appreciate the outpouring of support here.
Story time:
I grew up in an abusive household. My mother had BPD, and my sibling was the golden child. I was the scapegoat.
When things got too hot, I could just show up on my person's couch, middle of the night, and the only question ever asked was what I wanted for breakfast.
I've since moved across the country, but I ache for that sense of security again. Somewhere where I was always welcomed and never made to feel less than. Now that they've died, I fear I'll never find it again.
It's so hard to deal with, but I need help since it's been 14 months and I still cry near daily.
I've got an appointment later this week to get some professional help, because I don't think they'd appreciate the mess I've become since their passing.
Wish me luck.
Draegur@lemmy.zip · 25 pts · 304d
my heart aches for want of two things:
that a hug could be meaningfully transmitted through the internet,
that you would be willing to receive it.
... i doubt i'm capable of being That Person, but gods help me I want to be. I want to try. I hope i'll get to...
JeanValjean@piefed.social · 4 pts · 302d
I hope that you can be too, even for just one person could mean all the difference.
Empricorn@feddit.nl · 14 pts · 304d
While it's no consolation, how happy and fulfilled would they want you to be right now? What self-care can you practice to eventually reach that?
JeanValjean@piefed.social · 3 pts · 302d
I've got an appointment later this week to talk to professional types because I'm not handling it well and I don't think they'd like to see me in the state I currently am.
Empricorn@feddit.nl · 2 pts · 301d
That's really great! I am so proud of you...
JeanValjean@piefed.social · 3 pts · 300d
I had my appointment today, and got some chemical help, so progress is happening.
Lost_My_Mind@lemmy.world · 10 pts · 304d
huuuuuuuug
JeanValjean@piefed.social · 2 pts · 302d
<3
captainlezbian@lemmy.world · 20 pts · 304d
I have a friend who actually lives like that. Yes I tell her how much I appreciate her regularly
LadyButterfly@piefed.blahaj.zone · 10 pts · 304d
Is she looking for any new friends?
cosmicpancake@sh.itjust.works · 15 pts · 304d
credo@lemmy.world · 9 pts · 303d
This is a bot ^^
Scubus@sh.itjust.works · 4 pts · 303d
Wow, their entire profile got nuked but not deleted. What are they saying? And for a mod to have deleted all their comments, it seems the mod must be on their instance, in which case why didnt they delete the account?
credo@lemmy.world · 6 pts · 303d
Just a bunch of LLM based responses to each semi-random post. Same format each time, 2-3 paragraphs. New account with 57 posts in 11 hours, testing the waters on how well they set it to respond is my guess. Good for building a farm with a history.
bizarroland@lemmy.world · 15 pts · 303d
I wonder if this is the idea the witch in the Hansel and Gretel story started out with, only she made a wrong turn somewhere along the way.
unrealizedrealities@kbin.melroy.org · -22 pts · 304d
You FOOL! this is what everyone wants. you don't have to inconvenience others to achieve this. socialism sucks. ava gardner was ugly.
unrealizedrealities@kbin.melroy.org · 0 pts · 302d
Why are you downvoting this? Everything I agreed and stil agree with is socialism.