[i am unsure where this belongs, transjoy? mental health? here where i made the mentioned first post? ... idk how crossposing works here 👉👈]
you may remember me lamenting the loss of the 'gay' label since empirically i was usually atracted to men but due to me being mtf that's quite straight now ... well there's a lot to say about this. i might be best described as bi/pan actually.
anyhow. peeps, i met the bestest girl in recorded history. we've known each other for a while and shared a hobby, but recently found out we might like each other more, when we had a ridiculously romcom-esque weekend. so we started dating, and my heart is exploding. every day. i will see her again tomorrow, but it doesn't feel like i can survive that 24 hours. (yes, all very fresh.)
the only thing i am afraid of rn, is that she eventuall 'finds out' i am just three(+) diagnoses in a trench coat. i admire her and her work so much i don't know how she could be interested in me. i also don't want to make her reassure me all the time .. bc we don't feed the brain worms. but i feel like, i needed to tell someone. 😘
26 Comments
zabadoh@ani.social · 16 pts · 40d
Aww, you as a couple sound adorable.
Sending vibes that it works out for you both!
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 11 pts · 40d
very much appreciated! :)
strawberry_enjoyer42@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 13 pts · 40d
Awww y'all sound cute!
I don't wanna "feed the brain worms", but like, she gets to pick who she wants to date (if the person agrees to it ofc), and she picked you. That's her choice; her preference.
As someone who's struggled with feeling inadequate: just be you, and do what you can to make her happy. It sounds like she likes you a lot.
Enjoy your re-found homosexuality! :3
Yours truly,
5+ diagnoses in a trench coat.
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 12 pts · 40d
thank you for you kind words.
i was thinkin an hour ago, that there is no way her image of myself is identical to the one i had of myself for a decade, and have since seen steadily, eroding. she only know me as the person i was for the last year or so, and that's pretty consistent. i am no cool, creative or smart girl, yet she liked me back. time to befriend myself?
in theory, we should be fine. i wanna be and do better tho.
strawberry_enjoyer42@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 9 pts · 40d
I think you're cool and smart. You use the fediverse, after all :3
Also, it's great you want to self-improve, but don't forget to love the version of you who's actually doing the self improvement ;p
Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 12 pts · 40d
Gaaaayyyy! Love this for you bb!
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 3 pts · 39d
thanx! :)))
kivihiili@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 11 pts · 40d
WELL WELL WELL
but seriously though that is incredibly awesome.
having been on the other end of this, it will be ok!! you said both of y'all have known eachother for a while. she certainly made the decision to date you knowing who you are. she likes you, don't overthink it!
have fun frolicking in the fields together!!! <3
p.s.: plushies make really really awesome gifts :3
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 9 pts · 40d
aww yiss! i was thinking about something .. maybe i'll find a cute plush frog. (and there goes my afternoon. ;p)
i will form a mantra of that. she likes me for a reason. she likes me for a reason ..
Amnesigenic@lemmy.ml · 11 pts · 40d
CONGRATS!!!
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 8 pts · 40d
tyvm! :)
Nikki@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 10 pts · 40d
being gay is so fun good luck miss :3
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 8 pts · 40d
yeah, i had some reevaluation done. i am glad there i realised why i went exclusively for guys over the last decade ago. i feel like life in general is more fon now. bein able to gay around is just the cream on top of it. ;)
Eskarina@piefed.blahaj.zone · 8 pts · 40d
Awwwww, all these butterflies, good luck <3
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 6 pts · 40d
🦋
edg@lemmy.world · 7 pts · 40d
This is so cute 🥰
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 6 pts · 40d
(˘︶˘).｡.:*♡
hperrin@lemmy.ca · 7 pts · 40d
Congratulations on your rediscovered homosexuality! :)
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 7 pts · 40d
thx it's shinier than ever!
hperrin@lemmy.ca · 5 pts · 39d
Freshly washed and waxed gayness is the best. ;)
magic_smoke@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 7 pts · 40d
W000T fuck ye!
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 5 pts · 40d
🎉
gandalf_der_12te@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 4 pts · 39d
that does not sound very healthy. you might want to see a doctor about this.
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 4 pts · 39d
asked chat-gpt first, if an exploding heart is a serious issue. it said no and prescribed me listening to 'voyage voyage' every waking hour.
squirrel@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 2 pts · 39d
Be careful. Desireless is good, but you should avoid repetition. Doctors recommend mixing it up with some Mylène Farmer every other time.
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 2 pts · 39d
oh yeah, that's why i shouldn't rely on ai.