(This is a story originally from my Reddit account, posted almost a month ago. But along with my Reddit account, this post got deleted, so I though I'd find it on the Wayback Machine and post it on Lemmy instead. I found it really funny and wanted to keep it around)
About a week ago, I went out drinking with a couple of my friends. I enjoyed myself a lot, but I got really, really drunk lol. E has totally decreased my tolerance for alcohol and I rarely drink anyway.
When I stumbled back home (almost crawling on all fours at that point), my bf was very understanding. He helped me get undressed, inserted my prog for me and made sure I got to bed safely. Then I fell asleep.
I don't know why, but alcohol initially makes me fall asleep really easily, but then I always wake up a couple of hours later, not very well rested. So while I did fall asleep quite quickly, I didn't stay asleep for more than 5 hours.
I kinda woke up at about 3AM (my guess), totally out of it and confused. I did not open my eyes yet though. There was a lingering smell of wine in my nostrils, which was quite unpleasant, but I was fine otherwise, just really confused. I was trying to remember who I was or where I was, with my eyes still closed, and I kinda started rubbing my face against the pillow I was sleeping on.
It was really soft and smelled really, really good. Like that kind of smell that a girl's hair would have, nicely taken care of with various hair care products. This kind of worried me, because my brain was like: "This is a girl's pillow. What the hell did you do last night? Who am I going to wake up next to? I'm totally gonna wake up next to a girl that I don't know in the morning. And I don't even like girls!". I grew increasingly panicked, but I couldn't get enough of the scent, lol.
So I finally opened my eyes. My bf was sleeping next to me, in our own bed and I was laying on my own damn pillow π€£. I felt so stupid, but also pretty damn euphoric. It smelled soooo good! I guess HRT made my hair much less oily, so the only thing I could smell from my pillow was my shampoo and conditioner. It definitely gave me a confidence boost.
The next morning I woke up, after a not-so-restful night with a really bad hangover and felt like shit. But I had my euphoria and was at least really happy π©·
22 Comments
Nikki@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 25 pts · 6d
girl smell is one of those things people don't talk much about hrt it is so fucking awesome to get a whiff of myself and not hate it (not to mention girl smell from other girls π€€)
AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 12 pts · 6d
Preach sister, preach π
I noticed that. Once I was at a crosswalk and there was a girl sitting about 10m away from me. The wind was blowing from her direction towards me. And I could smell her, a lot.
It surprised me, because I smelled something and I was like: "Wait a minute...that smells like me when I don't shower for too long π"
And it wasn't as strong as boysmell, but I was still like girl, shower π
I notice how people smell now, all the time. Mainly boys π€£. It's such a strong smell and tbh, when it's not coming from me (finally, thank god), it's actually really attractive π
velma@sh.itjust.works · 13 pts · 6d
Aww this entire story is so sweet! Fun with the friends, caring boyfriend, AND euphoria? Thatβs awesome.
AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 9 pts · 6d
It was a great day, honestly. I'm still grateful (and a bit surprised π) that my bf administered my prog for me. I was definitely in no state to do it myself π€£
Such a euphoric day and experience π
gandalf_der_12te@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 5 pts · 6d
you know what, crazy conspiracy theory: your bf is actually straight and was just "preordering" ;-)
AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 5 pts · 6d
That would be brilliant and really funny π€£
but I don't think so.
He loved me as not myself and he still loves me as myself...and I think that says something really nice about our relationship :D
gandalf_der_12te@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 8 pts · 6d
that is a good story. it's always motivating to see a pic of a cute girl that makes you think "oh wow i want to get to know her" and then you take a while to realize that's you ...
renegadespork@lemmy.jelliefrontier.net · 6 pts · 5d
This is a cute story! I love moments of euphoria like that, even when they are a bit confusing.
So, in case you were curious what is happening physiologically, here is a hand-wavy generalized breakdown:
Alcohol is a depressant, meaning it basically slows down your nervous system (and by extension, your cardio-vascular system)... like a lot. Your initial "falling asleep" isn't actually sleep (which is a specific biological process with measurable stages), it's losing consciousness due to your nervous system being incredibly impaired.
Once your liver processes enough of the alcohol, your nervous system fires back up again and wakes you. It's often hard to go back to "sleep" when this happens because your body is over-compensating for the depressant by being more stimulated that normal given this context. You may notice your heart beating harder and more quickly when this happens.
Your body is also likely dehydrated because alcohol is a strong diuretic (which you've probably noticed). Most of the typical hangover symptoms are actually a result of dehydration. Basically the best thing you can do at this stage is continuously sip water. The girl in the morning will thank you.
The thing is, your body likes equilibrium. When something like alcohol throws it off, it will compensate by overstimulating the things the alcohol slowed down. Eventually this over-correction wears off and your body returns to normal. Now, with chronic alcohol use, your body has a harder time doing that, which is why alcoholism can be so dangerous (and even fatal) when it gets out of control, because your heart is basically flooring it 24/7 to compensate for the depressant.
Every once in a while, in moderation, alcohol is fine. Even the rare binge night is probably okay (given your are in a safe environment). People have been drinking it for thousands of years, so a healthy relationship is possible. But do take care of your new girl body so you can spend as long of a life in it as possible! π
P.S. I am not a medical professional, I've just been close to a couple people who struggled with alcohol. If you are a doctor and I've made any mistakes here, feel free to correct me.
AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 4 pts · 5d
Aha. Thanks for the explanation. Someone on the original post already explained it, but I'm dumb, I didn't get it the first time π
I thought this might be it...
I think it's why alcohol and benzo withdrawal specifically is so dangerous...
I will, tysm! And thanks a lot for the explanation π©·
I'll take better care of myself.
::: spoiler CW: substances I'm stopping kratom today. Used to take 2 teaspoons daily, which sucked. It keeps me from drowning in a deep depression, but the long term effects aren't great, not to mention addiction.
Instead (and this is gonna sound terrible) I have weed. I don't smoke it, I have an expensive dry herb vape, so no tar, it's much better on my lungs.
I have a much better relationship with weed than kratom, much longer too. I'll be fine, but I still kinda feel like a bad human, needing some drug to cope with life. I'm just disappointed that I'm not strong enough to cope sober... :::
Eskarina@piefed.blahaj.zone · 6 pts · 6d
So nice to hear about all these little experiences you have :)
The smell of my clothes changed so much! When they had this ewy man smell I couldn't wear anything more than once. Now I even added some washing perfume and it's just sooo yummy πΊ
AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 5 pts · 6d
Thank you <3. I've been blessed with having them and I enjoy sharing them. Even when they're slightly dumb sometimes π
Huh, I can't remember the smell of my clothes. I know I stank, but not sure about my clothes. Then again, my sense of smell sucked. I had to have my face right next to something to even be able to smell it.
Now I smell everything. People, flowers, food, trees...fuel π. It really is magic
The only thing I can smell from my clothes now is the detergent we use, in the washing machine. And that's even after wearing things many times. It's strange!
I can still smell myself tho. And damn, do I smell good. Like a girl, duh :3
Thank youuuu π©·
Eskarina@piefed.blahaj.zone · 3 pts · 5d
Ugh, whatever, you have such a cool aura, almost contagious. Wish I had the energy to share like that :3
Aww, that sounds great. Mine got a bit better too, but allergies are gonna keep fucking with my smell x(
Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 4 pts · 6d
It's almost embarrassing how much I love my smell now. Like my clothes before I wash them smell amazing. But you can't be huffing your own dirty clothes smell in front of someone without getting some weird looks lol.
AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 3 pts · 6d
Yesss, omg same. I keep smelling my armpits and body after a long, hot day and I can't get enough. Still can't believe that what I'm smelling (good smell) is actually me π
Honestly, with my sense of smell getting better, I also can't stop smelling my bf. He comes home, sweaty from work and I smell him all over. I enjoy it way too much π€£
::: spoiler NSFW Also...down there...wow π₯΅
It's such a hot, manly scent. It's an instant turn-on. I can't get enough of it.
I actually ask him to slap me in the face with his cock just because I can get a better whiff π€£
And the taste is amazing of course, but that's getting off topic... :::
I don't really notice it on my clothes tbh. On my body yes, but not on my clothing, no matter how long I wear it. Weird
Hey, if they were in the same situation, they'd be doing exactly the same π
They have no right to judge. Smell away, girl!
Take care of yourself Domi π©·
gandalf_der_12te@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 3 pts · 6d
true. but still, you have to trust the other person to be understanding enough for this.
phr@discuss.tchncs.de · 4 pts · 6d
hehe, i haven't had that moment with scent but with my reflection in the streets. bit's very nice, isn't it.
that's really just what alc does. tbh. sleep is garbage even with smaller doses.
i admit, i am a little curious about this story.
AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 3 pts · 6d
Aha, that's reflection/window euphoria, but this seems to be a new kind: smell euphoria π
It is amazing tho
It is! And my bf still won't stop insisting it "helps him sleep" π
Bs
It's not too interesting. I just had a mini-breakdown one day, decided to delete my (7 years old? I think) Reddit account and my posts got deleted with it. I tried making a new account, but all of my posts were getting deleted (new account, how am I supposed to make karma tho???). The cherry on top was when they asked for my ID, so I just left Reddit and went to Lemmy.
I was actually checking the Wayback Machine of my Reddit profile page. It's really funny, because my description goes like this:
18M he/him -> 19M he/him -> 20MTF π³οΈββ§οΈ she/her
and I just found that hella funny and kinda wholesome π, no idea why
I guess I finally stopped lying to myself π©·
Anyway, fuck Reddit, fuck Spez and long live the Fediverse. The people are much nicer here anyway and I feel a thousand times more welcome than back there π
Shirow@lemmy.zip · 4 pts · 6d
Well, I had this effect like : is this really me? When seeing my reflection. Happened 2 times already.
My smell changed.
Freaking my gf light sweat too (ΛΆΛ α΅ ΛΛΆ)
AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 3 pts · 6d
Hey, that's so nice! Happy for you girlie π
I'm not that far yet myself, but I'll get there eventually. I do get shadow euphoria tho π
The smell changes are so euphoric tho, aren't they? When boysmell was my smell, I hated it with a passion, honestly. I stank, I hated it. Could shower and I stank again, shortly after, because I was sweating while blow-drying my hair.
Now tho, I love how I smell. And because my boysmell is gone...I'm so attracted to it, I can smell all the boys in public π€€
Take care girlie π©·
Hope injections become "official" in your country one day
Shirow@lemmy.zip · 3 pts · 6d
You too, there are alternative. It's just not commercialised here which i annoying because it works so well. I would have to use T blockers otherwise.
My bloodtest (T) they never have been so low. And I have also never been so horny lately... (Well that part is not something I dislike with my gf. Just we'll have our apartment soon on the 1st of September so we'll be free to... :3)
Take care too, love seeing your journey π
AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 3 pts · 6d
That's true. The option of mono with injections is absolutely underrated.
So happy for you two, omg π. Girls, yourselves, so freaking much. So happy to hear that β₯οΈ
If you're comfortable, you can join me in my hornyposting. Then we'll have sapphic as well as straight options π
And I seem to be the only one doing it...oh well shrug
Thank you, but I love seeing your and other girls' journeys! And I'm really glad you have a loving gf, omg I'm gonna cry π
Take care of each other π©·
Shirow@lemmy.zip · 3 pts · 6d
I don't know maybe I'll make a post at some point. But... I might have asked for more progesterone up from 100mg to 200mg because of your posting.
And oh... I might have wanted some things like having my gf to put a baby in me too... I don't know if it's placebo effect because I wanted it to happen... (She isn't cisand no surgery yet)
Today my body shiver and tremble under her touch or dom play. (I have a tendancy to be able to switch now and sometimes want to). I've never felt this bestial. Like an animal in heat. It's weird I've never been this way before. Just something like feeling her breath on my neck, anything small thing that my mind could link to sex. My body reacts instantly.
Sertraline might have awaken something sadly. I might be bipolar and it affected my libido when I'm in a "high" moment. π I feel slightly more uninhibited but not really in a way that I can't think to consequences. I'll see not sure this is it, especially without a diagnosis.
Well I will stop Sertraline my GP told me to stop so at least my breast will be sensitive again. ΰΈ ^>β©<^ ΰΈ