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I always intend to do basically that but always end up just grabbing my phone.
I feel so disconnected to life that I don’t see what the point getting up out of bed and on my feet is. Directionless. Disconnected from my emotions and terrified of being vulnerable to do so. But hating myself and my life for not.
It’s like everyone else (around me) has a natural drive and I don’t know my place.
I will try harder to just be thanks to your encouragement:)
It had Lot to do with my inability to express my needs and concerns effectively. I DO look masc. i won’t go into detail but I do.
I’m sure she was reluctant about it because it’s a bit of a taboo and it’s quite unheard of for cis women under 40-50 to be prescribed hrt. She did say that if I wanted to check my hormones it would have to be done virtually every day for a matter of months or something like that (from fluctuations due to the cycle). So she sounded as though it wasn’t really a thing (?).
Annnd, I’ve also been checking out cis women or AFAB s experience taking what I’ve got so I’ve got a mix of information.
Well I did ask for a hormonal blood test and basically got denied. I did have blood taken though (the gp didn’t fully disclose what for annoyingly) and I got the result last week for low vitamin D. That was it.
I don’t really care to get another blood test at this point. It is what it is…can’t see myself going private either.
And tbh, after doing loads of drugs in my younger days, I feel pretty OK just taking this stuff and seeing how it goes. I’m not that bothered. I made the effort to ask for a hormonal blood test and that failed so whatever basically.
And my doctor - when I went in asking for a hormonal blood test - gave me a blood test but didn’t tell me exactly what was being tested and I only got told to take vitamin D. That’s what the result was.
I don’t see myself going and asking for another blood test regarding this only to get turned down again. I feel pretty alright just taking what I’ve got and going with it.
About intersex, I meant even if I have it it doesn’t make much difference to what I’m doing, how I feel, my plans to change.
I didn’t think you were talking about you as a partner for me at all lol. So funny how you had to clarify that twice.
And I get all, but my position still stands. But reading the post again, I guess my initial comment doesn’t really have much to do with it.
In the back of my mind I’ll be feeling not-so-special. Best if I stay single until I work on that insecurity properly.
Yhhhh but it’s sorta the same. Like, how many other girls have you used that on? What were their reactions? It just makes me think like that but I have issues…
💜 I always intend to do basically that but always end up just grabbing my phone. I feel so disconnected to life that I don’t see what the point getting up out of bed and on my feet is. Directionless. Disconnected from my emotions and terrified of being vulnerable to do so. But hating myself and my life for not.
It’s like everyone else (around me) has a natural drive and I don’t know my place.
I will try harder to just be thanks to your encouragement:)
Thank you.
I think I was always like this though. Like, how come other people can have technology and be happy n healthy?
Because it’s ugly and looks and feels like 💩
I confuzzled because it’s pretty commonly taken for PCOS (which I may or not not have) so I don’t see the big deal. ..
:( now I’m curious
It had Lot to do with my inability to express my needs and concerns effectively. I DO look masc. i won’t go into detail but I do.
I’m sure she was reluctant about it because it’s a bit of a taboo and it’s quite unheard of for cis women under 40-50 to be prescribed hrt. She did say that if I wanted to check my hormones it would have to be done virtually every day for a matter of months or something like that (from fluctuations due to the cycle). So she sounded as though it wasn’t really a thing (?).
Annnd, I’ve also been checking out cis women or AFAB s experience taking what I’ve got so I’ve got a mix of information.
I can’t see how it will make a difference. Maybe I’m being lazy about it but I just don’t see the point.
Well I did ask for a hormonal blood test and basically got denied. I did have blood taken though (the gp didn’t fully disclose what for annoyingly) and I got the result last week for low vitamin D. That was it.
I don’t really care to get another blood test at this point. It is what it is…can’t see myself going private either.
And tbh, after doing loads of drugs in my younger days, I feel pretty OK just taking this stuff and seeing how it goes. I’m not that bothered. I made the effort to ask for a hormonal blood test and that failed so whatever basically.
But I appreciate your concern.
Isn’t that what everyone on here’s doing?
And my doctor - when I went in asking for a hormonal blood test - gave me a blood test but didn’t tell me exactly what was being tested and I only got told to take vitamin D. That’s what the result was.
I don’t see myself going and asking for another blood test regarding this only to get turned down again. I feel pretty alright just taking what I’ve got and going with it.
About intersex, I meant even if I have it it doesn’t make much difference to what I’m doing, how I feel, my plans to change.
I didn’t think you were talking about you as a partner for me at all lol. So funny how you had to clarify that twice.
And I get all, but my position still stands. But reading the post again, I guess my initial comment doesn’t really have much to do with it. In the back of my mind I’ll be feeling not-so-special. Best if I stay single until I work on that insecurity properly.
Yhhhh but it’s sorta the same. Like, how many other girls have you used that on? What were their reactions? It just makes me think like that but I have issues…
Damn sounds scary. I hope I don’t get that whatever it is.
Any tips on how to avoid that?
I don’t like that though, being on the receiving end. Thinking about how you’ve done this with other girls. Not a good feeling…
Yh. It’s fairly accessible but I’m not in a place of wanting to do it.
What’s dilaudid and why were you in hospital?
Sounds amazing. Currently doing a 5 day.
I wish I had that type of adhd
That’s amazing.
You’re clearly not going to understand me on this. I’m done.
Did it help?