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on Text Editors H · c/linuxmemes · 3 pts · 12d
  • fave: vim
  • first: ED-IT?
  • future: vim
  • honorable mention: emacs
  • loathed: ed
  • current: vim
  • longest: vi

vim is basically my foreverhome at this point. I feel clumsy trying to use most other things. But I also like emacs shortcuts and learned a bunch of them unwittingly via bash having that mode set out of the box.

My father has untreated trauma via a fucked up, physically and mentally abusive upbringing and later suffered multiple TBIs he refused treatment for which made him even nastier.

He is a narcissistic, manipulative, bully and only truly respects people richer than him. He is obsessed with wealth and status and has no true friends. He is now elderly, lonely and bored shitless from having zero hobbies after working nonstop into his sixties and won’t leave me the hell alone because I’m one of the few left that can (barely) stand him.

Even still, I catch him lying constantly and I just put it in my pocket because it’s pointless to call him out. If i point out his schemes with evidence or his rose-tinted glasses, he flies into a rage and doesn’t speak to me for months.

He is incapable of grasping how his actions to get back at my mother for divorcing him hurt his children more than anything. He cannot understand why my sibling won’t let him see their grandchild anymore and cut him out of their lives because he accused them of being after the inheritance after trying to reconnect. It’s always, always someone else’s fault when you get down to brass tacks. He always has some perceived enemy, and usually it’s because they refuse to accept the mask and the bullshit behind it.

The worst part is he isn’t always completely awful in short visits. But it took me years to not shut down, disassociate or go into fight or flight mode just being in his presence. He tried despite all this to be a good Dad but it’s his vision of it. His assistance or motivation always has a catch or a price. And he doesn’t see what’s wrong with that. It’s all he knows.

So yea, having lived with this broken ass person in my life for decades, I react to this shitty trope with a level of scorn that is hard to describe.

Around here the bands were popular but most people just dressed in the usual thrift store punk rock or hardcore attire. Kids with the getup were considered something else and referred to as scenesters.

To me this shows they’re desperate for the support of so-called Libertarians after losing Kirk as a sock puppet. His widow broadcasting from the basement she was banned from isn’t cutting the mustard. And also the bro culture Joe fanatics that are often indifferent to politics.

Mine is only 15-20 minutes. But recently leadership gave an employee at a different office an award for something else. The guy had to give an impromptu speech about it. He mentioned the usual stuff but then commented on how his commute was an extra hour compared to his previous job, but “so worth it”. I wanted to reach through the screen.

The US release I’d occasionally rent for my SMS always fascinated me though i was a bit too young to really know wtf to do. I remember it was very difficult and the random encounters were brutal, but there was so much to explore and see. And boy was the box art neutered to hell compared to this beautiful graphic design.