permachillxo

u/permachillxo@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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on this · c/femcelmemes · 5 pts · 27d

that Cars dvd is so oddly specific but so spot-on lol

on Friends · c/NiceMemes · 3 pts · 71d

Totally not me in every workplace ive been to!!

gulp

on How's your week been? · c/trans · 2 pts · 164d

I finally got a job yippee!! An office job so the whole summer is spent boymoding in a black hoodie :(

suffering from success, i also dont know if its wise starting prog now incase it enlarges my breasts like a pair of balloons or something lol i already have difficulties concealing them guhh

on What workouts work well? · c/mtf · 4 pts · 216d

Pretty good for starters!

You could also get some inexpensive gear like training bands and leg weights to "upgrade" these sets.

on How did you choose your names? · c/mtf · 3 pts · 239d

I picked Riley from ig my long time favorite bands frontladys performance name (so not really her name). It just sounded rough and cute at the same time, which i guess fits me and my friend likes it too.

Not sure if i can have it as my legal name though...

on egg👩‍💻irl · c/egg_irl · 24 pts · 244d

I had spent like most of my free time playing league since 2020. Like literally all i did was grind league and workout, even while being a full-time student.

Started E at march 2024, quit league completely three weeks later, never came back.

Estrogen literally saved my mental health.

on *Permanently Deleted* · c/mtf · 7 pts · 262d

Hii Natalie! Your hair is so cute and your shirt looks awesome!

I hope you have/had a really nice day! <3

Honestly. Ive been on E for almost two years now, would pass if i tried but i just cant get myself to do it. Im happy with the changes and i wouldnt want to go back. Its my life, my body, and i have every right to seek a happy and fulfilling life as myself.

Sometimes i get these doubts too. Ive figured out that most of them come from outside, from people around me. I feel like i would be a disappointment to my parents if i did come out. Im not sure how my friends would react either. And suddenly i would have this huge need to perform my gender or something, to not appear fake and for the people to take me seriously. I dont wanna socially transition. Im just so afraid.

Like it would fix me if i could move somewhere where no one knew me from before. Its just that simple, but in practice, holy fucking shit. Its just, the people. The people make this so fucking hard. Especially the ones who know me and who i interact with weekly. Fuck.

As far as i know, i have met only one person like this.

A guy i knew in "highschool" (kinda equilevant) killed his friend a few years later while both were drunk and had just come out of sauna. He thought that his girlfriend had cheated on him with the other guy and woops, axe to the back.