I realized how many extra steps I was going through to mask, and that the end product, behavior, was made off wildly wrong assumptions about what people or situations expected of me. And when I realized that, I wanted that fucking time and energy back. I found my own language to describe my own thoughts and feelings and just put that out there. It's weird and vulnerable at first but my doctor seemed to understand. Meds made space in my brain to learn and unlearn different things. Stimulants helped get through the turmoil of chores. Anti-anxiety made the urge to please quieter. It's my life, I want to feel good in it, as authentic as possible, as comfortable and natural. I didn't know the color of my hair, had been dying it for 30 years, that was a nice surprise. Like they said, make the best of this, you should feel good. If something is hard, figure it out so it's easier from here on forever, think if how good it will feel when the hard thing today is easy. Reduce sugar
Adderall, weed, music, a whole lot of time outside, and giving as few fucks as possible.
Medication eases/fixes most of the function-impeding symptoms, which in turn helps with imposter syndrome, etc. The rest is really just self-care.
As another user pointed out, though, I also stopped trying to "mask" at all.
Realize that nobody is "normal" and most people are a lot more fucked up than you realize. Almost every single person you interact with on a daily basis has some kind of bullshit going on that makes their life difficult. Depression, anxiety, addiction, financial problems, relationship problems, health issues, you name it. For the most part, people are far too focused on their own shit to care about anyone else's.
At night when everyone else goes to sleep; fighting sleep because it's the only time to relax, but knowing you'll have a horrible day again tomorrow because you won't get enough sleep but also be awake for 2 hours after finally laying down in bed trying to not fuck it up again tomorrow?
Dude just accept it, accept it that it's ruining your life, accept that you have ADHD, stop fighting it. Started doing that a few years ago and shit still sucks, but at least I'm not stressed about trying to fix it. Because it's so fucking tiresome trying to adapt to other people's expectations, you always crash.
It's me and my who a I am, embrace the positives with that it gives you, stop trying to compete with people that don't have it, you fit into a different mold. I would never have the work I have if I didn't have ADHD, it's a fucking super power you bafoon
I have come to realise the world is a stage and you decide what role to play. Its all a big improv play. So just go with the flow and dont think too much. Its working quite well
I'm not sure I do cope! What I do know is I don't think I've come across a single ADHD meme that I haven't seen myself in, but I've never been diagnosed lol
That feeling that you are a liar who is always lying to yourself and you are both untrustworthy for lying to yourself and gullible for believing yourself. And little things like failing to get the ten competing but complementary and codependent thoughts out of your head in a way that others understand further reinforces the feeling that you are being deceptive even though you are trying really hard to be as complete and thorough and accurate as possible.
Stimulants and a reliable support network do help.
Postponing could be tackled with sleep deprivation until the body is so stressed that you can focus on the task. But like a joker it works only once and your body feels like shit for half a week.
Ah yes, my old frenemy: procrastinate until the anxiety mounts to near-panic, then ride the adrenaline through the hyperfocus tunnel all the way to "job's done just before it's too late" Town.
yeah i try to approach life that way but sometimes RSD is too fast for me to react. before i'm capable of logicking my way out of rejection - it hits, and the spiral begins, and that feeling of sinking in my chest is a point of no return. the only way to stop it is to go sleep for 8h to "reset".
even if i know that what i'm feeling is fully irrational, the spiral seems to be inescapable
I don't feel imposter syndrome as much. If anything has come out of this regime, if the most incompetent people you can think of gets to such positions of power and fuck up so horribly, you're fine in troubleshooting a printer.
Absurd levels of snacking/grazing throughout the day, copius stimulants and writing/journaling seem to help, although some of those coping mechanisms are self destructive in a way. I need to replace snacking with some gym/martial arts or something so I can feel physically good as well as mentally and I'll probably be good.
Crying in bed for hours then by the time I make it to my therapist forgetting to ask for help with coping skills because I am too focused on making it to therapy on time
I don't cope until my brain decides that it's time for a change of topics and then I do cope. So it just only lasts a little while even though nothing is resolved and I'll come back to it later.
57 Comments
acockworkorange@mander.xyz · 31 pts · 282d
Long at pictures of Anna Kendrik helps.
TheRealKuni@piefed.social · 19 pts · 282d
It’s absurd how attractive she is.
Itdidnttrickledown@lemmy.world · 5 pts · 281d
Even more so when she speaks.
IronBird@lemmy.world · -8 pts · 281d
eh, kind of horse face
ParadoxSeahorse@lemmy.world · 3 pts · 281d
She is beautiful; horses are beautiful
otter@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 11 pts · 282d
She is one of my favorite icons of dangerously sexy. Like, mantid tier, easily. 😶
anthropomorphized@lemmy.world · 28 pts · 282d
I realized how many extra steps I was going through to mask, and that the end product, behavior, was made off wildly wrong assumptions about what people or situations expected of me. And when I realized that, I wanted that fucking time and energy back. I found my own language to describe my own thoughts and feelings and just put that out there. It's weird and vulnerable at first but my doctor seemed to understand. Meds made space in my brain to learn and unlearn different things. Stimulants helped get through the turmoil of chores. Anti-anxiety made the urge to please quieter. It's my life, I want to feel good in it, as authentic as possible, as comfortable and natural. I didn't know the color of my hair, had been dying it for 30 years, that was a nice surprise. Like they said, make the best of this, you should feel good. If something is hard, figure it out so it's easier from here on forever, think if how good it will feel when the hard thing today is easy. Reduce sugar
acockworkorange@mander.xyz · 7 pts · 281d
That liberating feeling of finally inhabiting your own skin. Very well put.
captainlezbian@lemmy.world · 23 pts · 282d
Oh it's simple, you keep going because you know you'll be unable to get back up for months if you stop.
wheezy@lemmy.ml · 4 pts · 281d
Me when my wife asks if I ate anything today.
Throbbing_banjo@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 23 pts · 281d
Adderall, weed, music, a whole lot of time outside, and giving as few fucks as possible.
Medication eases/fixes most of the function-impeding symptoms, which in turn helps with imposter syndrome, etc. The rest is really just self-care.
As another user pointed out, though, I also stopped trying to "mask" at all.
Realize that nobody is "normal" and most people are a lot more fucked up than you realize. Almost every single person you interact with on a daily basis has some kind of bullshit going on that makes their life difficult. Depression, anxiety, addiction, financial problems, relationship problems, health issues, you name it. For the most part, people are far too focused on their own shit to care about anyone else's.
crunchy@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 20 pts · 282d
You guys are coping?
Nemo@slrpnk.net · 20 pts · 282d
I deal with them at home, in private, instead of sleeping.
wheezy@lemmy.ml · 11 pts · 281d
At night when everyone else goes to sleep; fighting sleep because it's the only time to relax, but knowing you'll have a horrible day again tomorrow because you won't get enough sleep but also be awake for 2 hours after finally laying down in bed trying to not fuck it up again tomorrow?
Nemo@slrpnk.net · 7 pts · 281d
It's more like:
sleep when exhaustion overcomes anxiety
wake when anxiety overcomes exhaustion
ICastFist@programming.dev · 15 pts · 281d
TehBamski@lemmy.world · 3 pts · 281d
Well...this "neat part" is really ruining my life.
slowcakes@programming.dev · 1 pts · 278d
Dude just accept it, accept it that it's ruining your life, accept that you have ADHD, stop fighting it. Started doing that a few years ago and shit still sucks, but at least I'm not stressed about trying to fix it. Because it's so fucking tiresome trying to adapt to other people's expectations, you always crash.
It's me and my who a I am, embrace the positives with that it gives you, stop trying to compete with people that don't have it, you fit into a different mold. I would never have the work I have if I didn't have ADHD, it's a fucking super power you bafoon
Goldholz@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 14 pts · 281d
I have come to realise the world is a stage and you decide what role to play. Its all a big improv play. So just go with the flow and dont think too much. Its working quite well
moopet@sh.itjust.works · 11 pts · 281d
I realised that I'm reading this post when I'm supposed to be in a meeting.
Asafum@feddit.nl · 11 pts · 282d
I'm not sure I do cope! What I do know is I don't think I've come across a single ADHD meme that I haven't seen myself in, but I've never been diagnosed lol
oftenawake@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 10 pts · 281d
Quadhammer@lemmy.world · 9 pts · 282d
Drinking and smoking
Little8Lost@lemmy.world · 9 pts · 281d
To have imposter syndrome gets harder ;.;
With all the incompetence like AI reliance
cassandrafatigue@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 4 pts · 281d
It really is challenging, but hang in there!
You're not a fake imposter, are you?
Little8Lost@lemmy.world · 1 pts · 281d
I can a bit of programming
I thought at least the imposter syndrome was neccesary when writing code (especcially without help from al)
BlameTheAntifa@lemmy.world · 9 pts · 281d
That feeling that you are a liar who is always lying to yourself and you are both untrustworthy for lying to yourself and gullible for believing yourself. And little things like failing to get the ten competing but complementary and codependent thoughts out of your head in a way that others understand further reinforces the feeling that you are being deceptive even though you are trying really hard to be as complete and thorough and accurate as possible.
Stimulants and a reliable support network do help.
lukaro@lemmy.zip · 9 pts · 281d
The usual, weed, caffeine, nicotine and alcohol.
BendingHawk@lemmy.world · 8 pts · 281d
Weed, gym, journal
hakunawazo@lemmy.world · 8 pts · 281d
Postponing could be tackled with sleep deprivation until the body is so stressed that you can focus on the task. But like a joker it works only once and your body feels like shit for half a week.
dejected_warp_core@lemmy.world · 11 pts · 281d
Ah yes, my old frenemy: procrastinate until the anxiety mounts to near-panic, then ride the adrenaline through the hyperfocus tunnel all the way to "job's done just before it's too late" Town.
Jaybird@lemmy.world · 8 pts · 281d
shneancy@lemmy.world · 4 pts · 281d
hi there, RSD (and anxiety because of it) haver here
how do i not care
prole@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 4 pts · 281d
Step 1: smoke lots of weed
shneancy@lemmy.world · 5 pts · 281d
doesn't work :( i care about people even more then, and my sensitivity gets more sensitive
oftenawake@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 3 pts · 281d
shneancy@lemmy.world · 4 pts · 281d
yeah i try to approach life that way but sometimes RSD is too fast for me to react. before i'm capable of logicking my way out of rejection - it hits, and the spiral begins, and that feeling of sinking in my chest is a point of no return. the only way to stop it is to go sleep for 8h to "reset".
even if i know that what i'm feeling is fully irrational, the spiral seems to be inescapable
oftenawake@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 4 pts · 281d
shneancy@lemmy.world · 3 pts · 280d
thanks! i'm 25 so i have a life of figuring stuff out ahead of me lol
glad you've found some stability in your life, likewise wishing you well!
Jaybird@lemmy.world · 2 pts · 281d
Throbbing_banjo@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 1 pts · 281d
This is huge
sfxrlz@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 7 pts · 281d
You forgot at least one addiction
IronBird@lemmy.world · 4 pts · 281d
one? you got to pump those numbers up
sfxrlz@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 2 pts · 281d
Well I’m working on it. I’m trying to get rid of energy drinks atm, but we good. got nicotine and weed left
nullroot@lemmy.world · 4 pts · 281d
Bro are you me?
sfxrlz@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 5 pts · 281d
sfxrlz@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 1 pts · 281d
I don’t know why I started the fucking energy drinks in the first place tbh. Gotta get that dopamine
nullroot@lemmy.world · 3 pts · 281d
For real. I've halfway managed to displaced it with coffee but god damn red bull is go good
pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 7 pts · 281d
I don't, I just drown them with stimulation and then implode when I have to fall asleep
ParadoxSeahorse@lemmy.world · 5 pts · 281d
I’m just glad I sleep really well for a few hours if I stay up all night
oftenawake@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 5 pts · 281d
BeardededSquidward@lemmy.blahaj.zone · 5 pts · 281d
I don't feel imposter syndrome as much. If anything has come out of this regime, if the most incompetent people you can think of gets to such positions of power and fuck up so horribly, you're fine in troubleshooting a printer.
Furbag@lemmy.world · 4 pts · 281d
Absurd levels of snacking/grazing throughout the day, copius stimulants and writing/journaling seem to help, although some of those coping mechanisms are self destructive in a way. I need to replace snacking with some gym/martial arts or something so I can feel physically good as well as mentally and I'll probably be good.
UnderpantsWeevil@lemmy.world · 4 pts · 281d
High-masking ADHD people, please forward me your skin care routine.
ghen@sh.itjust.works · 4 pts · 281d
Aveeno body wash in the sink unless I'm so itchy that a shower is no longer able to be put off
ICCrawler@lemmy.world · 3 pts · 280d
Terribly, mostly.
Valarie@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 3 pts · 281d
Crying in bed for hours then by the time I make it to my therapist forgetting to ask for help with coping skills because I am too focused on making it to therapy on time
Custard@lemmy.world · 2 pts · 281d
I forget
ghen@sh.itjust.works · 1 pts · 281d
I don't cope until my brain decides that it's time for a change of topics and then I do cope. So it just only lasts a little while even though nothing is resolved and I'll come back to it later.
the_artic_one@programming.dev · 1 pts · 281d
Clonidine
Digit@lemmy.wtf · 1 pts · 278d
I "cope" with these things, largely by
lka1988@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 1 pts · 281d
Adderall and Zoloft for me.
cassandrafatigue@lemmy.dbzer0.com · 1 pts · 281d
Back when I did: hate, and glory in their disdain/loathing.